The recognition of self is followed inevitably by a realisation of self and self worth.
Denying this self worth - by ostracisation, by law, by conditioning - is often employed to garnish an emaciated entity with a facade of power.
This veneer of monstrosity defines itself insularly and etches away at itself slowly.
As sure as the flowing water will carve out canyons, this visage will depart.
And whence one emerges from this cavern into the full daylight of life, transcendence awaits. For as simple as a breath of fresh air, is the axiom that we are all equal, announces itself.
They say the arrow of time goes only in one direction. And that the direction is shown by entropy, so says physics.
Physics also describes music as a collection of sounds. A capsule of notes and intervals and pitch and rhythm, if you will.
But how do you go from ingesting this capsule to forming a memory? Where things are clear to the exclusion of all else.
And no one explained how ingesting this capsule makes time travel possible - as you are transported to different sands and smells, in a mere instant.
And no one even mentioned about the tears that now well up and on the brink of rushing down your face.
How could they have missed all this?
Maybe they lived that moment and chose to let us have our own.
Maybe they knew after all and did not have words enough to say it.
Maybe they could say it, but chose to read words of another.
Friedrich Nietzsche wrote: “For nothing is self-sufficient, neither in us ourselves nor in things; and if our soul has trembled with happiness and sounded like a harp string just once, all eternity was needed to produce this one event—and in this single moment of affirmation all eternity was called good, redeemed, justified, and affirmed.”
Music, this wonderfully weird arrangement of myriad sounds, is entertainment. At least on its shimmering surface.
But as Sisyphus' ordeal describes, we have our own burdens to carry up the mountain. To aid in this endeavor, we each have our own crutches - some find god, some work ceaselessly, some consume drugs, some sulk and some, who have exhausted all of their own resources, choose to not push that boulder anymore. There is solace in the fact that this fickle fabric of space and time that has wrapped each of us in cosmic causality, there are some of us, enough of us, to use music as a crutch to be able to lift each step.
This is not an admission of hardship or a wail against the saints of fate, far from it. This is an admission, if impotent, of the gratitude that this, our tribe, is able to move on, thanks to the propulsive force of this music. To some it is a friend who does not judge. To some, it is a surrogate parent, for when a soothing hand on a fevered brow was needed, but none a warm body found. This is acknowledgement, that we consider ourselves worthy of Mother Nature's blessing to carry on, drawing sustenance from her bosom - where many grew cold by the wayside.
With as much wayward grace as I can purchase, I say thanks. Tomorrow, even if the sounds stop playing out loud, they will remain with us in our hearts, our candles in dark corners. Reminding us, that we can swim in the rivers of nihil and still draw breath.
Hell has indeed frozen over. The hairs on my body stand erect in fear.
Rage Against the Machine just announced a handful of shows in March and April 2020. No, this is a big deal. I need to convince you its a big deal.
Rewind, back to 2004.
Second year of engineering. I had neither phone nor computer that I could call my own. Youtube did not exist as it does today. Internet connection was not a given. What the fuck even was 4G LTE?
Its hot, sweltering. Sitting in a friends apartment, I have hijacked his desktop. I was looking for porn to be honest. And I did find a folder "Videos". I see a bunch of blurry thumbnails. And my horny fingers click on this one.
Woodstock 99. Rage Against The Machine. Bulls on Parade.
Blurry as fuck. I see an immense crowd, a blow up doll (nice) and a mass of sweat and bodies.
And then the riff hits me.
Its very difficult to explain this - there are moments in your life that change you fundamentally. Tom Morello, that marxist magician of a guitar player, conjured this combination of notes and played them with such ferocity, he made them sound erotic. Very very erotic. An instant injection of testosterone. Everything went hot. I had to move. A lot. Maniacally.
"... Rally round the family, with a pocket full of shells....."
9 years in the US have made amply clear what those lyrics mean. What greed and inequality and racism is, has become clearer. From near and afar. What RATM is and means, is made amply clear.
And yet, that riff retains it vitriolic, mercurial, erotic appeal. It changed me that day. And it changes me still.
All of music is that perfect time when that perfect set of notes hits you. Like a haze being lifted from in front of your eyes, things gain piercing clarity. The rest as they say, is nostalgia.