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Sunday, March 9, 2008

Written and Blurted out!



was watching the movie "Shooter" yesterday. this below mentioned dialogue got me thinking.


"There is always a confused soul who thinks he can set it all right. and you have to kill him to convince him otherwise. thats the hassle with democracy."

kept pondering over it for a long time. happily did not reach any conclusion. went to sleep.

Thursday, March 6, 2008

Movie time................"The Kingdom"


saw the movie, "the kingdom". and glad to say that after a long time , a movie which can touch my heart. tug at my emotional strings. the direction , acting, action etc etc. everything good.

typical terrorist - FBI movie. but shot in the Saudi Arabia. and real world touch to it. proper barbarism and brutality. story goes like this : an american compound near Riyadh. it falls prey to a fidayeen attack. 100 odd killed. many more injured. an FBI team , after many diplomatic pushovers get to go there for 5 days. crime scene investigation occurs and they find out one of the many hide outs where some action occurs. the FBI team is told to go back . when they are on their way back to the airport, they are ambushed and one of their colleagues taken hostage. the team with 2 saudi policeman , who have become good friends of theirs, accompany them. gripping car chase and gun battle later, they finally find their man and the head terrorist who had planned it all. and when we all thought that was over, a young kid , no more than 13-14 years old, comes in and shoots the saudi policeman. and as a result he is shot to death along with the aging, two finger less terrorist master mind.

that might all seem natural stuff when you read it. but it really touches you when you watch the movie. great soundtrack, amazing acting. especially the roles played by Jamie Foxx and the Saudi policeman are just too good. and the last sentence just got my goat (the one which jamie foxx whispers into the ear of a lady officer and the dying Abu Hamza says to his grandchild):


"Don't worry. We will kill them all"

man............i was expecting a really sorry ass philosophical statement there. but this is another weird dimension. a case of hate begets hate. or rather the beginning of the cycle. a vicious, hateful, violent and an almost never ending one. "we will kill them all". you will never fathom the amount of impact just by reading it. it has to be seen in the movie to be felt. so don't curse me cause i haven't ripped the movie apart. the execution is the piece - de - resistance . watch it if you have not already. may be a tad too violent for some people, but nevertheless, watch it.

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

Smells like teen spirit!!!


yeah yeah, i am talking about the song by Nirvana, the greatest youth anthem ever."smells like teen spirit" as the name goes, perfectly capturing the taste of those confused years.

"Load up on guns
Bring your friends
Its fun to lose
And to pretend
Shes overboard
Myself assured
I know I know
A dirty word"

having fun with your mates, the occasional funny cigarette, girl friends, sex (ok my indian friends that does not apply to you................:P.............and me too..............:(.........), swearing and the whole lot. thats what make those years so very memorable. the joy of discovery in everything we do. a very puritanical feel to it all. pride in what we make. and a very stupid stubborn attitude. you guys surely know what i am talking about.


"With the lights out its less dangerous
Here we are now
Entertain us
I feel stupid and contagious
Here we are now
Entertain us
A mulatto
An albino
A mosquito
My libido
Yea"

being senseless , young and invincible. thats what it is all about. acting like we are immortal. thinking about things that may seem immaterial to this world. but we say, what the heck. its our life. lets live it.


"I'm worse at what I do best
And for this gift I feel blessed
Our little group has always been
And always will until the end"


hahahahhahahah....................confusion reigns supreme. experienced it haven't you???

"And I forget
Just what it takes
And yet I guess it makes me smile
I found it hard
Its hard to find
Oh well, whatever, nevermind"

yeah surely , never mind. \m__m/

Monday, February 18, 2008

Metallica rules!!!!!


yeah finally............well....................actually nothing very great about me writing this. any person who has known me for 10 minutes can tell that i am a heavy metal fan. another half an hour and he/she would come to know that my favorite band in the world is the mighty METALLICA. one of the big four thrash gods, they virtually invented grunge back in the early nineties.

Metallica are:
james hetfield
lars ulrich
kirk hammett
cliff burton (dead)/jason newsted(left the band)/rob trujillo

its not so much of the statistics that this band has created that captures me. its obviously the music. right from their first album "kill 'em all", they have been one of the most tight and creative (and not to forget...................brutally fast) bands the world has ever seen. before all the death metal non sense even started. actually those cookie monster music men owe a lot to metallica and slayer for where they stand. "hit the lights" their first track on the metal massacre compilation was the genesis of what was going to be an epic journey. they matured through "ride the lightning". and then the world just could not resist the onslaught of their epic "master of puppets". a momentous album. it really opened up the world stage for them. blowing bands like ozzy osbourne off stage while supporting them. that was what was going on. the blitz continued with "...........And Justice for all". one of the best core thrash metal albums of all time. and then was the time of nuclear "metallica" destruction. with the eponymous album a.k.a. "the black album", metallica proved that they were the best. on top of the world. the heaviest and the loudest. three years of touring to support the black album. and then came "load" and its kid brother "Reload". a little change in the musical direction, but very "metallica" nonetheless.
nostalgia reigned on "Garage Inc..." with them playing covers of their idols like motorhead. as if this was not enough, they went ahead and collaborated with the San Francisco symphony orchestra to create the timeless "s&m". a masterpiece that album , just like all the others. and after jason newsted left , the band went through another makeover. rediscovering themselves and their drives .most expected the band to fall apart. but they came back stronger than ever. with "st. anger" they planted a strong fist on the faces of doubters and hecklers. ditto with the documentary "some kind of monster". once again at the top. reigning proudly.

enough of the timeline nonsense. i mean all know about it. they are not the worlds greatest heavy metal band for nothing. well what really gets my goat is the way these people make their music. they don't have the "best guitar solo player in the world" or the "fastest drummer in the world". just a plain insane drive to make metal music. and get it out to people. and if they do not pay attention, just play louder and faster. away from the greasy spandex and pink glam metal bands and into normal jeans , tees and crates of beer, these guys at anytime could crack you up with their metal attack. be it the lyrics (mostly by james hetfield) or the solos (mostly by kirk hammett) or the mixing and production arrangement and of course drumming by lars ulrich, the music is very heartfelt. it will touch a vein, strike a chord with everyone of us. faster tunes like battery and blackened. melodic ones like "one". slow and balladic ones like "nothing else matters" and "the call of the ktulu". they have done everything. and they could because they knew what they were doing and how they were doing. they did not allow the outside world to interfere with the metalli-world that they had created . and being gutsy enough to keep room for innovation on every album. i am sure people will find this point very relevant in the black album - load- st. anger transition period. and people loved everyone of them. and of course the awards kept coming all the time.

so , you can listen to metallica and open up to a complete new world of heavy music or stay ignorant and at peace. but that does not bother me. they are in the studio putting the finishing touches to their latest album. and when it comes out i am going to buy it and be happy that they are still out there alive and well and kicking ass. and me rocking to their tunes. Nothing else matters. \m__m/. hail metallica!!

p.s. : April 7th has been proclaimed as "Official Metallica Day " by Willie Brown , the then (1999) mayor of San Francisco.

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Metal a headbangers journey.........


this is the link to a very good documentary made by Sam Dunn. A must watch for all metal heads and metal haters alike. very informative and also fun to watch.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Czn2RpQ8YZA

p.s.: this is part 1 of 10. you will find subsequent links on the same page.

Tears.....................they are not weak.....


something i jotted down in five minutes. dunno what was the source of it all and will be happy to keep it that way. its sort of raw and ragged. so suggestions for improvement are always welcome.

tears, not be fooled
they are not weak.
they are not frail.

tears, moist in a child's eyes.
in the eyes of the loving mother.
love they convey, it isn't lost.

tears when lovers drift apart
contradiction, love increase when far
Bind they strongly their hearts

tears in the memory of one faraway
of anguish and rage when they betray.
strength they give colossal.

tears of hatred at humanity's curse
of confusion, trivia, what is worse.
undo your brain they will

tears of sympathy for a man unknown
wrath befallen him leaves your heart torn
bonds of humanity they do strengthen

tears of realization, for things discovered
beneath the surface, hidden, unscathed
push humanity ahead, fuel the race.

Sunday, December 9, 2007

Slayer and Slain!


again back after a long time .....a break full of lunacy and emotions and stupidity also..............
well in the meantime i had the moments to write this down. was like a trance when i put pen to paper and then when i woke up it was done. dunno what to say about it.

alone i stand beside my curved steel,
audience to a theater of war
me the victor, thee the vanquished.
dismembered, disfigured ,all those who face me.
lie they all conquered, i care to see.
lies my brother for all his love
sleeps my friend , dreams he helped me have.
choked my love, for the meaning her life to mine gave
happiness i once prayed for them
salvation today i deny them.
for a wrong that was never meant to be.
and when the gaze lowers to my own self,
left am i disgusted like no else.
did that small child just disappear,
or did i act the butcher.
when did this venom grow?
why let the devil tighten its claw?
mastered my own will, i did
cultivated the bed for this black seed.
helped everyone , i thought
what curse upon them i brought
caretaker turned slayer
carnage brewed from what i held dear
blindfolded myself to let me see
everyone is dread, threat and enemy
forged a sword sharp as it could be
bonds of love could never stand the hara kiri
sliced through all, heart black and cold
carved a story, no tongue would unfold.
victor i stand, testimony to my wrath
king to the crown i never sought
what cost have i paid to earn the name
the gladiator or the morally slain?

p.s. : this is to be taken purely as a collection of words with no links to reality whatsoever.

Monday, November 5, 2007

Wind in the hair.................


whats the ultimate riding experience? i just experienced something that was closest to the perfect ride i have had in these 21 years of my stupid life.and to get the right meal, the ingredients have to be specifically correct. these are............

1. a royal enfield thunderbird
2. 20 kms of long and good quality tarmac
3. a slight chill in the air , winter time is the best.
4. dead midnight, least traffic.

and my god, the recipe is so potent that when you are left to get to grips with reality, you find it hard to shrug it off. really enjoyed the ride and the adrenaline rush it gave. at one point my eyes started watering from the constant barrage of speed and the cross winds, but the hand won't let go of the throttle. almost achieved 100kph (do not laugh you insolent cockheads, this is pune!!)
a million thanks for this experience should go to Kartik and V'Raj for reasons best not disclosed!!hehehehehehe............................................can't wait to get back on that bike and go cruising again!!

Some amazing lyrics...............again completely Dil se!!

again here is a blog and comprises some lyrics which i feel are amongst the best ever written. read them, enjoy and if any opinions, feel free to post.




Killer of Giants (Ozzy Osbourne)

If none of us believe in war
Then can you tell me what the weapons for
Listen to me everyone
If the button is pushed
There'll be nowhere to run

Giants sleeping giants winning wars
Within their dreams
Till they wake when its too late
And in gods name blaspheme

Killer of giants threatens us all
Mountains of madness standing so tall
Marches of protest not stopping the war
Or the killer of giants
The killer of giants

Mother nature people state your case without its worth
Your seas run dry your sleepless eyes are turning red alert

Killer of giants threatens us all
Mountains of madness standing so tall
Rising so proudly it has nowhere to fall
This killer of giants
This killer of giants

Killer of giants................

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Nothing else matters (Metallica)

So close no matter how far
Couldnt be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I dont just say
And nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters

Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
But I know

Never cared for what they say
Never cared for games they play
Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
And I know......................


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Something to believe in..(Bon Jovi)

I lost all faith in my god, in his religion too
I told the angels they could sing their songs to someone new
I lost all trust in my friends
I watched my heart turn to stone
I thought that I was left to walk this wicked world alone

Tonight Ill dust myself off
Tonight Ill suck my gut in
Ill face the night and Ill pretend
I got something to believe in

And I had lost touch with reason
I watched life criticize the truth
Been waiting for a miracle
I know you have too

Though I know I wont win
Ill take this one on the chin
Well raise a toast and Ill pretend
I got something to believe in

If I dont believe in jesus, how can I believe the pope
If I dont believe in heroin, how can I believe in dope
If theres nothing but survival, how can I believe in sin
In a world that gives you nothing
We need something to believe in


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Aerials (System Of A Down)

Life is a waterfall
We're one in the river
And one again after the fall
Swimming through the void
We hear the word
We lose ourselves
But we find it all....
Cause we are the ones that want to play
Always want to go
But you never want to stay
And we are the ones that want to choose
Always want to play
But you never want to lose
Aerials, in the sky
When you lose small mind
You free your life
Life is a waterfall
We drink from the river
Then we turn around and put up our walls
Swimming through the void
We hear the word
We lose ourselves
But we find it all...
Cause we are the ones that want to play
Always want to go
But you never want to stay
And we are the ones that want to choose
Always want to play
But you never want to lose
Aerials, in the sky
When you lose small mind
You free your life
Aerials, so up high
When you free your eyes eternal prize
Aerials, in the sky
When you lose small mind
You free your life
Aerials, so up high
When you free your eyes eternal prize


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Dream On (Aerosmith)

Every time I look in the mirror
All these lines on my face getting clearer
The past is gone
It goes by, like dusk to dawn
Isn't that the way
Everybody's got their dues in life to pay

Yeah, I know nobody knows
where it comes and where it goes
I know it's everybody's sin
You got to lose to know how to win

Half my life
is in books' written pages
Lived and learned from fools and
from sages
You know it's true
All the things come back to you

Sing with me, sing for the year
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears
Sing with me, if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow, the good lord will take you away

Dream On Dream On Dream On
Dream until your dreams come true
Dream On Dream On Dream On
Dream until your dream comes through
Dream On Dream On

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Jokerman (Bob Dylan)

Standing on the waters casting your bread
While the eyes of the idol with the iron head are glowing.
Distant ships sailing into the mist,
You were born with a snake in both of your fists while a hurricane was blowing.
Freedom just around the corner for you
But with the truth so far off, what good will it do?

Jokerman dance to the nightingale tune,
Bird fly high by the light of the moon,
Oh, oh, oh, Jokerman.

So swiftly the sun sets in the sky,
You rise up and say goodbye to no one.
Fools rush in where angels fear to tread,
Both of their futures, so full of dread, you don't show one.
Shedding off one more layer of skin,
Keeping one step ahead of the persecutor within.

You're a man of the mountains, you can walk on the clouds,
Manipulator of crowds, you're a dream twister.
You're going to Sodom and Gomorrah
But what do you care? Ain't nobody there would want to marry your sister.
Friend to the martyr, a friend to the woman of shame,
You look into the fiery furnace, see the rich man without any name.

Well, the Book of Leviticus and Deuteronomy,
The law of the jungle and the sea are your only teachers.
In the smoke of the twilight on a milk-white steed,
Michelangelo indeed could've carved out your features.
Resting in the fields, far from the turbulent space,
Half asleep near the stars with a small dog licking your face.

Well, the rifleman's stalking the sick and the lame,
Preacherman seeks the same, who'll get there first is uncertain.
Nightsticks and water cannons, tear gas, padlocks,
Molotov cocktails and rocks behind every curtain,
False-hearted judges dying in the webs that they spin,
Only a matter of time 'til night comes steppin' in.

It's a shadowy world, skies are slippery gray,
A woman just gave birth to a prince today and dressed him in scarlet.
He'll put the priest in his pocket, put the blade to the heat,
Take the motherless children off the street
And place them at the feet of a harlot.
Oh, Jokerman, you know what he wants,
Oh, Jokerman, you don't show any response.

Jokerman dance to the nightingale tune,
Bird fly high by the light of the moon,
Oh, oh, oh, Jokerman.



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Cats In the Cradle (Ugly Kid Joe)

My child arrived just the other day
Came to the world in the usual way
But there were planes to catch and bills to pay
He learned to walk while I was away
He was talkin 'fore I knew it
And as he grew he said,
I'm gonna be like you, dad,
You know I'm gonna be like you.

And the cats in the cradle and the silver spoon,
Little boy blue and the man n the moon.
when you comin home?
son, I don't know when. well get together then.
You know well have a good time then.

Well, my son turned ten just the other day.
He said, thanks for the ball, dad. come on, lets play.
Could you teach me to throw?
I said, not today. I got a lot to do.
He said, thats okay. and he walked away and he smiled and he said,
you know, I'm gonna be like him, yeah.
You know I'm gonna be like him.

Well, he came from college just the other day,
So much like a man I just had to say,
I'm proud of you. could you sit for a while?
He shook his head and he said with a smile,
what Id really like, dad, is to borrow the car keys.
See you later. can I have them please ?

I've long since retired, my sons moved away.
I called him up just the other day.
I'd like to see you, if you don't mind.
He said, Id love to, dad, if I could find the time.
You see my new jobs a hassle and the kids have the flu,
But its sure nice talkin to you, dad.
Its been sure nice talkin to you.
And as I hung up the phone it occurred to me,
He'd grown up just like me.
My boy was just like me.

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Child in Time (Deep Purple)

Sweet child in time you'll see the line
The line thats drawn between the good and the bad
See the blind man shooting at the world
Bullets flying taking toll
If you've been bad, lord I bet you have
And you've been hit by flying lead
You'd better close your eyes and bow your head
And wait for the ricochet


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Mouth for War (Pantera)

Revenge
I'm screaming revenge again
Wrong
I've been wrong for far too long
Been constantly so frustrated
I've moved mountains with less
When I channel my hate to productive
I don't find it hard to impress

Bones in traction
Hands break to hone raw energy
Bold and disastrous
My ears can't hear what you say to me

Hold your mouth for the war
Use it for what isn't for
Speak the truth about me
Determined

Possessed
I feel a conquering will down inside me
Strength
The strength of many to crush
Who might stop me
My strength is in number
And my soul lies in every one
The releasing of anger can better any medicine under the sun

There comes a time within everyone to close your eyes to
what's real
No comprehension to fail
I vacuum the wind for my sail
Can't be the rest
Let others waste my time
Owning success is the bottom line.
Like a knife into flesh
After life is to death
Pulling and punching the rest of duration
NO ONE can piss on this determination


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Youth Of The Nation (P.O.D.)

Last day of the rest of my life I wish I would have known cause i'd have kissed my
momma goodbye. I didn't tell her that I loved her or how much cared or thank my
pops for all the talks and all the wisdom he shared. Unaware I just did what I
always do. Everyday the same routine before I skate off to school but who knew
that
this day wasn't like the rest, instead of takin the test I took two to the chest.
Call me blind but I didn't see it comin and everybody was runnin but I couldn't
hear nothin, except gun blast, it happened so fast I didn't really know this kid
though I sat by him in class. Maybe this kid was reachin out for love or maybe
for a moment he forgot who he was or maybe this kid just wanted to be hugged,
whatever it was I know its because

Little Suzzy she was only twelve she was given the world with every chance to excel
Hang with the boys and hear the stories they tell she might act kinda proud
but no respect for herself

She finds love in all the wrong places the same situations but different faces.
Changed up her pace since her daddy left her too bad he never told her she
deserved much better.

Johnny boy always played the fool, he broke all the rules so you would think he was cool.
He was never really one of the guys no matter how hard he tried, with the
thought of suicide
It's kinda hard when you ain't got no friends, he put his life to an end they
might remember him then.
You cross a line and there is no turnin back, he told the world how he felt with
the sound of a gat.

Who's to blame for the life that tragedies claim no matter what you say it won't
take away the pain, that I feel inside I'm tired of all the lies don't nobody know
why it's the blind leadin the blind.
Guess that's the way that the story goes, will it ever make sense somebody's
gotta
know, there's gotta be more to life than this, there's got to be more to everything
I thought exists


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To Whom It May Concern (Creed)

Oh, I didn't mean to yell
But sometimes I get beside myself
And oh, I didn't mean to rush you
But time keeps pushing so much
Oh time keeps pushing so much

Your eyes stare at me in the dark
And I hope, those eyes don't steal my freedom
My freedom

Oh, if I didn't give it all
When I stood you made me crawl
And oh, if you never heard this song
Then I could still hide down behind the wall
Then I could still hide down behind the wall

And I hope those eyes don't steal my freedom
My freedom

Ohh, my freedom
Said eyes, those eyes
Said don't steal my freedom

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Brothers In Arms (Dire Straits)

These mist covered mountains
Are a home now for me
But my home is the lowlands
And always will be
Some day you'll return to
Your valleys and your farms
And you'll no longer burn
To be brothers in arms

Through these fields of destruction
Baptisms of fire
Ive watched all your suffering
As the battles raged higher
And though they did hurt me so bad
In the fear and alarm
You did not desert me
My brothers in arms

Theres so many different worlds
So many different suns
And we have just one world
But we live in different ones

Now the suns gone to hell
And the moons riding high
Let me bid you farewell
Every man has to die
But its written in the starlight
And every line on your palm
Were fools to make war
On our brothers in arms


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But It Rained (Parikrama)

Wrapped in a polythene tucked away safe in my mind
A little goodbye maybe or just a passing smile

The birds fly away to the southern sky searching a home
A bunch of paper flowers or a little boy left all alone
Can somebody hear me I'm screaming from so far away
Morning who will calm you now, the evening is eclipsed again

Well does life get any better
More yesterday than today
How I thought the sun would shine tomorrow
But it rained . . .

They justified the cause for which Daddy might give up his life
It's been so long, so long a time, still I miss Daddy at night
The ache is long gone but the never keeps staring along
The waters in the seas are high
and all the sand castles have drowned

Well does life get any better
More yesterday than today
How I thought the sun would shine tomorrow
But it rained . . .


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Re-Align (Godsmack)

Decisions made from desperation
No way to go
Internal instincts craving isolation
For me to grow

My fears come alive
In this place where I once died
Demons dreaming
Knowing I...I just needed to realign

Fell in a river of illusion
And apathy
Drowning in a self-induced confusion
I'd rather be
Yeah!

My fears come alive
In this place where I once died
Demons dreaming
Knowing I...I just needed to realign

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Serenity (Godsmack)

As I sit here and slowly close my eyes
I take another deep breath
And feel the wind pass through my body
I'm the one in your soul
Reflecting inner light
Protect the ones who hold you
Cradling your inner child

I need serenity
In a place where I can hide
I need serenity
Nothing changes, days go by

Where do we go when we just don't know
And how do we relight the flame when it's cold
Why do we dream when our thoughts mean nothing
And when will we learn to control

Tragic visions slowly stole my life
Tore away everything
Cheating me out of my time
I'm the one who loves you
No matter wrong or right
And every day I hold you
I hold you with my inner child

I need serenity
In a place where I can hide
I need serenity
Nothing changes, days go by

Where do we go when we just don't know
And how do we relight the flame when it's cold
Why do we dream when our thoughts mean nothing
And when will we learn to control

Where do we go when we just don't know
And how do we relight the flame when it's cold
Why do we dream when our thoughts mean nothing
And when will we learn to control

I need serenity

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Angel of Death (Slayer)

Auschwitz, the meaning of pain
The way that I want you to die
Slow death, immense decay
Showers that cleanse you of your life
Forced in
Like cattle
You run
Stripped of
Your lifes worth
Human mice, for the angel of death
Four hundred thousand more to die
Angel of death
Monarch to the kingdom of the dead
Sadistic, surgeon of demise
Sadist of the noblest blood

Destroying, without mercy
To benefit the aryan race

Surgery, with no anesthesia
Fell the knife pierce you intensely
Inferior, no use to mankind
Strapped down screaming out to die
Angel of death
Monarch to the kingdom of the dead
Infamous butcher,
Angel of death

Pumped with fluid, inside your brain
Pressure in your skull begins pushing through your eyes
Burning flesh, drips away
Test of heat burns your skin, your mind starts to boil
Frigid cold, cracks your limbs
How long can you last
In this frozen water burial?
Sewn together, joining heads
Just a matter of time
til you rip yourselves apart
Millions laid out in their
Crowded tombs
Sickening ways to achieve
The holocaust
Seas of blood, bury life
Smell your death as it burns
Deep inside of you
Abacinate, eyes that bleed
Praying for the end of
Your wide awake nightmare
Wings of pain, reach out for you
His face of death staring down,
Your blood running cold
Injecting cells, dying eyes
Feeding on the screams of
The mutants hes creating
Pathetic harmless victims
Left to die
Rancid angel of death
Flying free


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Hole in the sky (Black Sabbath)

I'm looking through a hole in the sky
I'm seeing nowhere through the eyes of a lie
I'm getting closer to the end of the line
I'm living easy where the sun doesn't shine

I'm living in a room without any view
I'm living free because the rents never due
The synonyms of all the things that Ive said
Are just the riddles that are built in my head

Hole in the sky, take me to heaven
Window in time, through it I fly

Ive seen the stars disappear in the sun
The shootings easy if you've got the right gun
And even though I'm sitting waiting for mars
I don't believe theres any future in cause


I've watched the dogs of war enjoying their feast
I've seen the western world go down in the east
The food of love became the greed of our time
But now I'm living on the profits of pride

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Symphony of destruction (Megadeth)

You take a mortal man,
And put him in control
Watch him become a god,
Watch peoples heads aroll
Aroll...

Just like the pied piper
Led rats through the streets
We dance like marionettes,
Swaying to the symphony...
Of destruction

Acting like a robot,
Its metal brain corrodes.
You try to take its pulse,
Before the head explodes.
Explodes...

The earth starts to rumble
World powers fall
Awarring for the heavens,
A peaceful man stands tall
Tall...


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Disappear (Hoobastank)

There's a pain that sleeps inside
It sleeps with just one eye
And awakens the moment that you leave
Though I try to look away
The pain it still remains
Only leaving when you're next to me

Do you know, that everytime you're near
Everybody else seems far away
So can you come and make them disappear
Make them disappear and we can stay

So I stand and look around
Distracted by the sounds
Of everyone and everything I see
And I search through every face
Without a single trace, of the person
The person that I need

Do you know, that everytime you're near
Everybody else seems far away
So can you come and make them disappear
Make them disappear and we can stay

Can you make them disappear?
Make them disappear

There's a pain that sleeps inside
Sleeps with just one eye
And awakens, the moment that you leave
And I search through every face
Without a single trace, of the person
The person that I need

Do you know, that everytime you're near
Everybody else seems far away
So can you come and make them disappear
Make them disappear and we can stay

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Broken Wings (Alter Bridge)

Fight the fight alone
When the world is full of victims
Dims a fading light
In our souls

Leave the peace alone
How we all are slowly changing
Dims a fading light
In our souls

In my opinion seeing is to know
The things we hold
Are always purge to go
And who's to say
We won't end up alone

On broken wings I'm falling
And it won't be long
The skin on me is burning
By the fires of the sun
On skinned knees
I'm bleeding
And it won't be long
I've got to find that meaning
I'll search for so long

Cry ourselves to sleep
We will sleep alone forever
Will you lay me down
In the same place with all I love

Mend the broken homes
Care for them they are our brothers
Save the fading light in our souls

In my opinion seeing is to know
What you give
Will always carry you
And who's to say
We won't survive it too

Set a-free all
Relying on their will
To make me all that I am
And all that I'll be

Set a-free all
Will fall between the cracks
With memories of all that I am
And all that I'll be

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Benighted (Opeth)

Come into this night
Here we'll be gone
So far away
From our weak and crumbling lives
Come into this night
When days are done
Lost and astray
In what's vanished from your eyes

What came and distorted your sight
Saw you benighted by your fright

Come into this night
Your plight alone
Carry your weight
You are flawed as all of us
Come into this night
You only home
It's never too late
To repent, suffer the loss

What came and distorted your sight
Saw you benighted by your fright

What came and distorted your sight
Saw you benighted by your fright

Come into this night
When you're able
To undo your deeds
And atone with your lonely soul
Once you're into this night
All minds are stable
Forget all your needs
Lose the grip of all control

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Silent Lucidity (Queensryche)

Hush now, don't you cry
Wipe away the teardrop from your eye
You're lying safe in bed
It was all a bad dream
Spinning in your head
Your mind tricked you to feel the pain
Of someone close to you leaving the game of life
So here it is, another chance
Wide awake you face the day
Your dream is over... or has it just begun?

There's a place I like to hide
A doorway that I run through in the night
Relax child, you were there
But only didn't realize and you were scared
It's a place where you will learn
To face your fears, retrace the years
And ride the whims of your mind
Commanding in another world
Suddenly you hear and see
This magic new dimension

I- will be watching over you
I- am gonna help you see it through
I- will protect you in the night
I- am smiling next to you, in Silent Lucidity

-spoken during solo-
[Visualize your dream]
[Record it in the present tense]
[Put it into a permanent form]
[If you persist in your efforts]
[You can achieve dream control]
[Dream control]
[How's that then, better?]
[Dream control]
[Dream control]
[Dream control]
[Dream control]
[Hug me]

If you open your mind for me
You won't rely on open eyes to see
The walls you built within
Come tumbling down, and a new world will begin
Living twice at once you learn
You're safe from pain in the dream domain
A soul set free to fly
A round trip journey in your head
Master of illusion, can you realize
Your dream's alive, you can be the guide but...


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Saturday, November 3, 2007

WHO????

was just going through the hard drive on my lappie, when i came across this obscure piece of writing(??). back then i do not know what it had meant to me, but today i think i am clearer about it. here goes nothing:

"I was f***ing bored today. No one around in 301 and I was playing the same old rhythms on the kit with absolutely no wish to keep playing. Hell, I even fell asleep. Worse things could never happen. Couldn't keep doing that. Throwing off the drum sticks, I stomped my way down to the restaurant near our college, ordered some thing to force down my pipe (thought it was my tummy playing tricks on my brain). And when angrily chomping on my stuff, I happened to notice this man who was sitting in front of me. Description could be as good as saying Mr. Average Joe. Normal shirt and trousers, clean unshaved and disheveled hair. And he was constantly looking at something in his hand. Since from my place I could not make out what it was I decided to haul my bulk and change the angle. What I saw was a a leather wallet holding a handsome young mans picture. Black eyes, neatly parted hair, white shirt and a black blazer. The tie was maroon mind you, that’s a bit out of the way for me. Might be his son , I thought, albeit a little loudly. And as I quieted down I could hear the old guy sobbing. Poor thing, I thought. Old man missing his bright son. The typical Indian story- lower middle class family, brilliant boy in the fold, studies hard, gets a good job and off to America. The old man and his wife won’t live for long anyways. So why worry. Made me think about my dad and momentarily resolve that my father would not go through this. Well, all this thinking and conclusion reaching needed energy. As I finished off my short “anger venting meal”, I settled the charges and was about to leave as I saw it. The face of the man who was sitting in front of me. The face in the photograph. They were the same, leaving apart the stubble. And then I had nothing to ask anyone and not even myself. I was just pissed to no end about my drum sessions. That seemed like royalty in front of what I was a spectator to. This guy, has lost so much in his life that his once glorious days were his only support and they too were doing him no good.

No, returning from there, my drumming and my evening did not improve, heck, just because I had met a sadder man. But stopped me sure from cribbing about the bare bone fact. Couldn’t feel equal to it. Had to go home and sleep the night off. Tomorrow might be my lucky day."